Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in moonkronik's LiveJournal:

Friday, January 6th, 2006
12:15 am	Bananas It's like midnight, and I just want to smoke some more pot, watch some porn, and go to bed... I put my VCR in my bedroom ... lol that's for the porn lol... haha but anyway, I have to do alotta shit tomorrow before me and mallory leave with my parents at 4 in the afternoon, oh god, the drive up there is going to be some boring, my dad will be driving so we can't smoke cigarettes, that sucks... lol but then we get to babysit Piper that night and everyone will be gone for the night lol, my mom said she'd probably sneak me a 6pk of corona, because she usually buys me beer up there, it's awesome lol ... me and mal bought a fat bag today so we saved a whole bunch for tomorrow night, sweet. It's a different, interesting place, i can't wait to be there ... but i will get sick of it real fast, so i work saturday night then going to mal's and waiting for my best friends to chill with me and we'll all get fucked up like hella lol .. I can't wait... but i don't want to pack my bag lol ... i'll put it off till tomorrow... i'm so happy about this fucking money situation, my check was so much, i couldn't even believe it, shocked. i need to save it though, it's going to be tought, but i need to get the hell out of here after i go to Regency... i will probably finish my unit tomorrow on the car ride up north, so i'm planning out when i'm getting my diploma and then i can go to Regency.....wow! But I have to go make a list of things to do tomorrow, and smoke some bud. Oh yeah, one more thing ... i had to smoke my brother up ... it was weird, like the other time, i mean we laughed and coughed but he didnt have much to say, and either did i. he ran off and said he might come back or else he'd call me... stupid, he needs to smoke me up anyway, yeah right.. god what a scam artist. lol ... well that's it. Current Mood: groggy Current Music: Dilate - Ani Difranco (Comment on this)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
3:05 am	I don't know what to write for this subject... Half of this month has been nothing but hell. I can't take anything anymore. I just want to run away from everyone and cry. I feel awful. Even when I am hanging out with my best friends I feel lonely, and lost. It hurts so bad. And I don't have anyone to talk to. I mean I do but I don't want to put my dumb drama in their lives. Something terrible has gone wrong. I can't quite figure it out yet, but it hurts. I can't stand the feeling of tears running down my face at the moment, they are beginning to burn and sting my face. I just want to be alone, or maybe just be alone with someone. Mallory hasn't really helped me out these past few weeks, I can't take it, I'm going to break down and not be able to come back. I feel like I could slip into a coma .... I don't like this feeling. I need someone to talk to, but I can't get it out of my head that no one wants to hear my shit. I mean I am glad to hear others problems' but it seems like no one would be willing to hear mine.. I need my pills, I need to go to a session with my counseler. I can't do it. I hurt, and there isn't much I can do. I hate bottling up these things, I bottled them up just long enough for me to be so down and I can't get back up. I can't stop shaking, I can't sleep, I wake up every night and I just need to be alone.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
1:48 am	First Entry Ever! So Here I am sitting on my computer in my room. I am so stoked to finally have a live journal to write in... cuz i just need to or something. Spoon and I made a bet that I wouldn't write in my LJ for like a year... pshh, well here ya go haha... Mal said that i should write things about her in here... funny. of course, what else would i have to write about... lol so it is almost 2 in the morning and today was just boring like usual, i just want to start my online school shit to at least feel normal again.. I feel so out of place now that i quit school... i kind of think i might need some time away from mallory, plus she has her period and today we didn't communicate unless we were bitching at each other. i just want to like know the feeling of missing her, because we have been together for friggin' ever. i know everyone just wants us to be apart, but i don't know what that would do, i don't know how i'd feel, and that scares me hella ... i think i would have a panic attack and freak out... and i mean i know i have people to run too, but when i'm scared i want mallory to comfort me because that makes me feel so secure and i love it. well i am going to smoke a cigarette before i go to bed and burn a couple cds for sarah... these bitches should pay me for burning their asses cds ... i am almost out of fuckin cds and i'm broke broke broke!! Fuck ... well i just want to go to bed... i drank tonight and coughed my fucking lungs out smoking with mi novia ... so i'm pretty fucked up and i can't stare at this screen in the dark any longer. Current Mood: uncomfortable Current Music: Up Up Up - Ani Difranco (Comment on this)